Train of Thought

And as for travelling abroad, for me is Edinburgh... Well, not exactly for travelling. It was for studying, but it also involved a lot of travelling 😜. 10 September 2016 gue mendarat di Edinburgh setelah super long flight CGK- DOH - EDI. Ini pengalaman pertama gue ke luar negeri dan langsung penerbangan panjang, jadi banyak kenorakan yang terjadi dari security check bandara, toilet pesawat, sampe nyari cara gimana sampe ke flat. Untungnya nyampe sana bareng segerombol anak Indo lain yang juga mau kuliah, jadi nggak luntang lantung sendirian. Muka-muka kucel abis long flight, (not-so-) fresh from the airport 🛬 Akhirnya kami milih naik taksi dari bandara ke flat masing-masing. Gue naik taksi bertiga, dan berhubung rutenya flat gue paling jauh dari bandara jadi gue turun terakhir dan yang kebagian bayar taksi. I have no idea what did the driver say with that Scottish accent, I just gave him the only £50 note I had and hope he gave me the change (lol, he did t...

Dear me, Remember the feeling when you were excluded from any family or household-related problem? the feeling when your absence was not making any difference, or even unnoticeable? The reaction you got when you asked random questions or simply did something differently?  The feeling when you couldn't have your own choices in your mid-20s even after you tried to justify them? That's why you always became morose and silent when you were home, no matter you were having a great day or a shitty one. You became bitter. You can never hold your tears whenever you see a mother-daughter or father-daughter scene even in the movies; Because you always hope that yours are just like them. ** You always said (more like grumbled tho) that you want to parent differently from your parents. You're grateful for having them (--well, maybe not enough), because you know you won't be you if you were born in another family. But improvement here and there won...